I has unhappy feels. But it will be okay. Their kind of selfish partially but I need to get it all out.
I just found out one of my aunts who I am particularly close to has stage 1 lung cancer.
She's fine and really healthy otherwise from what I believe. I mean, she's a nurse by profession.
And I know she will overcome this. She's such a strong selfless woman.
But it hurts because I am close to her. She was the first person I came out to on how sick my mother actually was...
Blah. I mean she tried to make a difference in my life for me. Since a lot of people on my dad's side keep to themselves.
(And partially felt insecure around my mother, a woman too 'mainstream' for country folk....but that's whatever.)
I mean this woman was truly there for me. Honestly, she is like a second mother to me.
I'm gonna go to church Wednesday and put in a prayer request just for her. <3
But it's really awesome I will probably get to see her this Saturday and other times over the summer.
Kinda had to get that feel out, onto the next.
And here's something selfish, but it would be really nice if an understanding ear would listen...
I am getting my first hearing aid this Wednesday...I will be wearing it for the next five years of my life or until hearing surgery
becomes more accurate and has a greater success rate. Woo.
I'm so excited, I will be able to hear what i've been missing my entire life. <3
I just don't like the idea of being a girl with a handicap...I mean it will show up on my license...
I'm afraid people will find out and think i'm a freak. I don't know. I just feel that way.
Blah. I'm in one of those moods where if one thing makes me sad, my entire being feels it.
Heh, it always seems I always have to fight my most hardest battles by myself.
Eh, it will just make me stronger. Eventhoughitwouldbereallyniceifrinardowerehere.
But I shall leave you with a good note... www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jihrwm…
<3 Queen, Now im here, live at the bowl <3