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Just some feels.
3 min read
I has unhappy feels. But it will be okay. Their kind of selfish partially but I need to get it all out.
...
I just found out one of my aunts who I am particularly close to has stage 1 lung cancer.
She's fine and really healthy otherwise from what I believe. I mean, she's a nurse by profession.
And I know she will overcome this. She's such a strong selfless woman.
But it hurts because I am close to her. She was the first person I came out to on how sick my mother actually was...
Blah. I mean she tried to make a difference in my life for me. Since a lot of people on my dad's side keep to themselves.
(And partially felt insecure around my mother, a woman too 'mainstream' for country folk....but that's whatever.)
I mean this woman was truly there for me. Honestly, she is like a second mother to me.
I'm gonna go to church Wednesday and put in a prayer request just for her. <3
But it's really awesome I will probably get to see her this Saturday and other times over the summer.
Kinda had to get that feel out, onto the next.
And here's something selfish, but it would be really nice if an understanding ear would listen...
I am getting my first hearing aid this Wednesday...I will be wearing it for the next five years of my life or until hearing surgery
becomes more accurate and has a greater success rate. Woo.
I'm so excited, I will be able to hear what i've been missing my entire life. <3
I just don't like the idea of being a girl with a handicap...I mean it will show up on my license...
I'm afraid people will find out and think i'm a freak. I don't know. I just feel that way.
Blah. I'm in one of those moods where if one thing makes me sad, my entire being feels it.
Heh, it always seems I always have to fight my most hardest battles by myself.
Eh, it will just make me stronger. Eventhoughitwouldbereallyniceifrinardowerehere.
But I shall leave you with a good note...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jihrwm… <3 Queen, Now im here, live at the bowl <3
...
I just found out one of my aunts who I am particularly close to has stage 1 lung cancer.
She's fine and really healthy otherwise from what I believe. I mean, she's a nurse by profession.
And I know she will overcome this. She's such a strong selfless woman.
But it hurts because I am close to her. She was the first person I came out to on how sick my mother actually was...
Blah. I mean she tried to make a difference in my life for me. Since a lot of people on my dad's side keep to themselves.
(And partially felt insecure around my mother, a woman too 'mainstream' for country folk....but that's whatever.)
I mean this woman was truly there for me. Honestly, she is like a second mother to me.
I'm gonna go to church Wednesday and put in a prayer request just for her. <3
But it's really awesome I will probably get to see her this Saturday and other times over the summer.
Kinda had to get that feel out, onto the next.
And here's something selfish, but it would be really nice if an understanding ear would listen...
I am getting my first hearing aid this Wednesday...I will be wearing it for the next five years of my life or until hearing surgery
becomes more accurate and has a greater success rate. Woo.
I'm so excited, I will be able to hear what i've been missing my entire life. <3
I just don't like the idea of being a girl with a handicap...I mean it will show up on my license...
I'm afraid people will find out and think i'm a freak. I don't know. I just feel that way.
Blah. I'm in one of those moods where if one thing makes me sad, my entire being feels it.
Heh, it always seems I always have to fight my most hardest battles by myself.
Eh, it will just make me stronger. Eventhoughitwouldbereallyniceifrinardowerehere.
But I shall leave you with a good note...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jihrwm… <3 Queen, Now im here, live at the bowl <3
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ohshitgonnasubmitsomestuff
1 min read
Like, it's been forever.
A few selfies.
and...
SOME BASIC STARTER POKE'MON!
A few selfies.
and...
SOME BASIC STARTER POKE'MON!
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So boredatidadidadid
6 min read
NAME: Rachel
AGE: 16.
BIRTHDAY: February 24
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage: Kool-Aid
2. last phone call: Rinardo
3. last text message: LOL, "Made some soupsoupsoupsoupsoup and noodles and i'll talk to you
when you get off the flight"
4. last song you listened to: Same love by Macklemore
5. last time you cried: At the CFD assembly
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice: Technically yes, but we were only separate for a week, so that goes against the code.
7. been cheated on: Um, yeah but that was awhile ago.
8. kissed someone & regretted it: Not really.
9. lost someone special: Yeah my mom.
10. been depressed: I have my moments.
11. been drunk and threw up:Nerp.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Red
13. Orange
14. Purple
THIS YEAR (2013), HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: Yep.
16. Fallen out of love: Yes and no
17. Laughed until you cried: I seriously don't recall. But I had a lot of fun
18. Met someone who changed you: I guess.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Nope, but that's okay.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah, but it was old BS over my ex. Lovely yes?
21. Kissed anyone on your dA friend's list: Nope.
GENERAL:
22. How many people on your dA friends list do you know in real life: Melanie and Jake, well gee.
23. What's your favorite Car: Mine
24. Do you have any pets: A cat named Berniece and a cuddly slobberpus named Jasper.
25. Do you want to change your name: Not really, but I wish I could change my middle name to Angelina
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Went out to eat and shopping with my ladiesss.
27. What time did you wake up today: Six forty five
28.What were you doing at midnight last night: I was asleep by then.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Going to Missouri <3 I've waited about a year to see my family <3
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?:Um. A lot of stuff. But i'm happy with how my crazy life is.
32. Have you ever wished upon a star?: Yeah, for a dog.
33. Are you an artist?: Yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nothing really~
35. How often are you on dA?: Every day it seems.
36. How many dA accounts do you have?: Only this one.
37. Nicknames: Rayro, Redheaded Angel, White Chocolate, The Ginja, Bathroom, Ginja Tortise.
38. Relationship Status: Taken by a black man.
39. Zodiac sign: Pisces
40. He or She: She.
41. Elementary: Windsor Hills(yeah ghettoville!) and WOES
42. High School: PCWEST. (yeah ghettoville!)
43. College: I hope Oral Roberts or Oklahoma christian.
44. Hair colour: Auburn
45. Long or short: Longue <3
46. Height: I think I'm 5'1'
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: A certain black man who is on an airplane I love very much.
48. What do you like about yourself?: How I am able to think out a situation logically and responsibly and how sexy I am.
49. Piercings: None
50. Tattoos: Nope.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty.
FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: The summer before 3rd grade I had ear surgery
53. First piercing: None
54. First best friend: Hannah or Amanda
55. First sport you joined: Omnikin Ball. Like a boss.
56. First boyfriend/girlfriend: I have dated several douche bags, but only one bf has proven his worth.
57. First word: My first word was Apoo, a barely audible version of 'Apple
58. First kiss: Rinardizzle, now we make out and shit like that in the hallways. 8D
LOL "GET THAT WHITE GIRL!" Some gangster thug black guys said when they saw us.
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Soup and Noodles.
60. Drinking: Nothing
61. I'm about to: Wash dishes /not looking forward to it.
62. Listening to: Imagine Dragons
63. Waiting for: Missouri <3
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: Yeah
65. Get Married?: Yeah
66. Career?: Minister or Biologist, something that lets me travel.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Both
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Younger or Older: I actually enjoy and prefer dating older guys. (Three year difference in mine)
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic and Spontaneous? My boyfriend is a happy medium
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: I'm an arm person.
73. Sensitive or loud: Both, my boyfriend is a happy medium.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: I don't know in particular...
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: No.
77. Drank hard liquor: I don't recall.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yep.
79. Sex on first date: Eww, no. -_____-
80. Broke someone's heart: I don't know, but he had it coming.
81. Had your own heart broken: Several times, yes.
82. Been arrested: Lolyeah
83. Turned someone down: Yeah.
84. Cried when someone died: Well gee, obviously not.
85. Fallen for a friend: Yeaaaaah.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yeah
87. Miracles: Yeah
88. Love at first sight: Something like that.
89. Heaven: Yeah
90. Santa Claus: Lolno
91. Kiss on the first date: Yes, if appropriate but no make out scene. SKANK.
92. Angels: Yeah
93. Aliens: Something like that
NAME:
94. Places you've been to: WELL UH. I just got back from Chicago yesterday.
95. Five cartoon characters: Rainbow Dash, Ash Ketchum, Tommy Pickles, Blossom, and Pinkie Pie. (Off the top of my head
96. Instruments you play: Flute, any keyboard or mallet instrument and drums.
97. The first color that pops into your brain: Red
98. The three things(not people/water/food/air.) you couldn't live without: Well, besides the stuff you excluded I could live without anything.
YOU ARE:
99. Happy with your life: I'm always happy. ^____^
100. Not afraid to fall in love: ...I think I already did...
AGE: 16.
BIRTHDAY: February 24
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage: Kool-Aid
2. last phone call: Rinardo
3. last text message: LOL, "Made some soupsoupsoupsoupsoup and noodles and i'll talk to you
when you get off the flight"
4. last song you listened to: Same love by Macklemore
5. last time you cried: At the CFD assembly
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice: Technically yes, but we were only separate for a week, so that goes against the code.
7. been cheated on: Um, yeah but that was awhile ago.
8. kissed someone & regretted it: Not really.
9. lost someone special: Yeah my mom.
10. been depressed: I have my moments.
11. been drunk and threw up:Nerp.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Red
13. Orange
14. Purple
THIS YEAR (2013), HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: Yep.
16. Fallen out of love: Yes and no
17. Laughed until you cried: I seriously don't recall. But I had a lot of fun
18. Met someone who changed you: I guess.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Nope, but that's okay.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah, but it was old BS over my ex. Lovely yes?
21. Kissed anyone on your dA friend's list: Nope.
GENERAL:
22. How many people on your dA friends list do you know in real life: Melanie and Jake, well gee.
23. What's your favorite Car: Mine
24. Do you have any pets: A cat named Berniece and a cuddly slobberpus named Jasper.
25. Do you want to change your name: Not really, but I wish I could change my middle name to Angelina
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Went out to eat and shopping with my ladiesss.
27. What time did you wake up today: Six forty five
28.What were you doing at midnight last night: I was asleep by then.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Going to Missouri <3 I've waited about a year to see my family <3
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?:Um. A lot of stuff. But i'm happy with how my crazy life is.
32. Have you ever wished upon a star?: Yeah, for a dog.
33. Are you an artist?: Yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nothing really~
35. How often are you on dA?: Every day it seems.
36. How many dA accounts do you have?: Only this one.
37. Nicknames: Rayro, Redheaded Angel, White Chocolate, The Ginja, Bathroom, Ginja Tortise.
38. Relationship Status: Taken by a black man.
39. Zodiac sign: Pisces
40. He or She: She.
41. Elementary: Windsor Hills(yeah ghettoville!) and WOES
42. High School: PCWEST. (yeah ghettoville!)
43. College: I hope Oral Roberts or Oklahoma christian.
44. Hair colour: Auburn
45. Long or short: Longue <3
46. Height: I think I'm 5'1'
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: A certain black man who is on an airplane I love very much.
48. What do you like about yourself?: How I am able to think out a situation logically and responsibly and how sexy I am.
49. Piercings: None
50. Tattoos: Nope.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty.
FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: The summer before 3rd grade I had ear surgery
53. First piercing: None
54. First best friend: Hannah or Amanda
55. First sport you joined: Omnikin Ball. Like a boss.
56. First boyfriend/girlfriend: I have dated several douche bags, but only one bf has proven his worth.
57. First word: My first word was Apoo, a barely audible version of 'Apple
58. First kiss: Rinardizzle, now we make out and shit like that in the hallways. 8D
LOL "GET THAT WHITE GIRL!" Some gangster thug black guys said when they saw us.
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Soup and Noodles.
60. Drinking: Nothing
61. I'm about to: Wash dishes /not looking forward to it.
62. Listening to: Imagine Dragons
63. Waiting for: Missouri <3
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: Yeah
65. Get Married?: Yeah
66. Career?: Minister or Biologist, something that lets me travel.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Both
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Younger or Older: I actually enjoy and prefer dating older guys. (Three year difference in mine)
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic and Spontaneous? My boyfriend is a happy medium
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: I'm an arm person.
73. Sensitive or loud: Both, my boyfriend is a happy medium.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: I don't know in particular...
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: No.
77. Drank hard liquor: I don't recall.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yep.
79. Sex on first date: Eww, no. -_____-
80. Broke someone's heart: I don't know, but he had it coming.
81. Had your own heart broken: Several times, yes.
82. Been arrested: Lolyeah
83. Turned someone down: Yeah.
84. Cried when someone died: Well gee, obviously not.
85. Fallen for a friend: Yeaaaaah.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yeah
87. Miracles: Yeah
88. Love at first sight: Something like that.
89. Heaven: Yeah
90. Santa Claus: Lolno
91. Kiss on the first date: Yes, if appropriate but no make out scene. SKANK.
92. Angels: Yeah
93. Aliens: Something like that
NAME:
94. Places you've been to: WELL UH. I just got back from Chicago yesterday.
95. Five cartoon characters: Rainbow Dash, Ash Ketchum, Tommy Pickles, Blossom, and Pinkie Pie. (Off the top of my head
96. Instruments you play: Flute, any keyboard or mallet instrument and drums.
97. The first color that pops into your brain: Red
98. The three things(not people/water/food/air.) you couldn't live without: Well, besides the stuff you excluded I could live without anything.
YOU ARE:
99. Happy with your life: I'm always happy. ^____^
100. Not afraid to fall in love: ...I think I already did...
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So summer begins.
1 min read
Sao, I came home from Chicago yesterday. Chicago is crowded and busy but so beautiful <3
Gonna try to put the pics on here and FB.
Then I went to my boyfrans, before he left.
Then today I went to my doctor to get my second Gardasil shot.
Tomorrow I get my hearing aid. For the first time ever in my life I will be able to hear.
WOOOOO! <3
And Rinardizzle is on a plane to Jackson SC for basic training.
Mah baby's gonna be in the army.
He'll be gone for the whole summer.
And i'll be in Missouri for the summer.
I can't wait to see him when I get to see him again.
And my friends when I get back.
I should also be getting my Driver's License soon. WOOOO!
Gonna try to put the pics on here and FB.
Then I went to my boyfrans, before he left.
Then today I went to my doctor to get my second Gardasil shot.
Tomorrow I get my hearing aid. For the first time ever in my life I will be able to hear.
WOOOOO! <3
And Rinardizzle is on a plane to Jackson SC for basic training.
Mah baby's gonna be in the army.
He'll be gone for the whole summer.
And i'll be in Missouri for the summer.
I can't wait to see him when I get to see him again.
And my friends when I get back.
I should also be getting my Driver's License soon. WOOOO!
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Unnh my sinuses.....
1 min read
I have a sinus infection since the allergy count is being a jerk to me.
Had it since Friday, but it's getting better.
I also have this constant smell of mucus in the back of my throatish nasal area.
Kinda sucks and I sound like a man or someone up at two in the morning...
Then my face is all warm and red and my eyes are dry and my throat is too.
Just all kinds of fun, woo.
Wanted to get that out.
Had it since Friday, but it's getting better.
I also have this constant smell of mucus in the back of my throatish nasal area.
Kinda sucks and I sound like a man or someone up at two in the morning...
Then my face is all warm and red and my eyes are dry and my throat is too.
Just all kinds of fun, woo.
Wanted to get that out.
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